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I would also recommend house plants, and multi colored lighting. Also, get off the drugs.
Currently try walking outside and doing some push ups, squats and maybe pull ups/chin ups twice a day, working my way up to 5x a day. Helps a shit ton.
I also have a Himalayan salt lamp, crystals, stones, an essential oil vaporizer, and giant granite stone sitting in my room... I was desperate.
This all started by drug use, and accidentally "coming out" (not gay but accidentally implied it) while on MDMA to my druggie close friend, because I couldn't feel it/sense the implication and there was a cute sensual girl from earlier I, once again, accidentally mimicked somewhat. I didn't think I was doing anything, but he did, and I was on MDMA so I thought "Huh, maybe I did." Led to crazy shit despite later denying his come-ons, since the answer to that question is always, positively, negative, yet for some reason the question kept being asked. This led to "mental illness". Amazing how forcing a false identity can fuck you up.
Anyway I got a pink grow light for my house plants, a yellow/orangy pink salt lamp, a multi colored (right now green) essential oil vaporizer, and a red bulb in a lamp, with a normal bulb in my closet on.
Reading some occult stuff, beginning mathematics (of which I was very active in high school), beginning programming (always wanted to do this, along with the hardware side), politics (keeping track of this presidency, and international stuff, and have a book Tragedy & Hope about the background to the current power structures), and drinking plenty of tea and coffee. Also, I do not eat junk shit and take plenty of vitamins and minerals, and will make myself some food instead, because junk makes me feel like absolute shit just thinking about it.
Eating 3x a day and drinking water/tea/vitamin water throughout the day regulates whack cycles. Focusing your mind on other shit, including aesthetic things, especially the aesthetics of emotions and people (to improve your opinion and connection to humanity, and improve your relationship to the human that you are), as well as an intellectual pursuit, and an artistic pursuit (I need to get into piano), shall do wonders.
Habit is king. If you have a routine that squeezes out the shit, rather than one that lets you steep in it like shit tea, you will always bounce back and be awesome.
I got a 3 hr/cycle system, and I keep track of what I've done on my list and what I haven't. This is a daily, unchanging, immutable list and the most important shit is on the top of the list for my well being... the order only changes with a very good reason. Once I can do the 16 items on my list every 3 hours, ~5x a day, I will have mastered a valuable skill.
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