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man seeks junkie wisdom Anonymous 16/10/04(Tue)06:57 No. 13240

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Junkies, please help me. I need your knowledge.

My father is an alcoholic. He recently went to rehab, and I visited him there last month. While there, I spied a wonderful specimen- tall, thin, kind eyes, laughing & beautiful. After I left, much to my surprise, my pops told me that she had asked him for my number. Being the weak, fleshly sensualist that I am, I told him to relay the digits, for which he rightly questioned my judgement (she's a heroin addict, been to jail, this was her sixth rehab). Pops was nonetheless a total bro and gave her my number. We get in touch- she was out in a few days. All goes well and we start seeing each other. I'm 26, she's only 19..

Now I'm no square. Done alot of different shit, recovering reefer addict(laugh it up), never done smack, but I've done plenty of amphetamines and smoked crystal thrice. Felt how bad that shit was, how hard on the heart (I am older now and pride myself on healthy living.) As far as drug use, this girl puts me to shame. She began using crystal at the tender age of 13 to lose weight, discovered heroin not long after. Now she's actually a fucking fashion model, and still hates her body, go figure. Anyway after getting out this time she's on vivitrol- a weekly (or biweekly?) injection that blocks the effects of opioids. However, as I quickly discovered, she still smokes small quantities of meth.

I didn't know how to approach it. To me being supportive was remaining non-judgmental, encouraging of honesty, always suggesting less harmful alternatives, trying to walk gently towards giving it up. Went to some NA meetings with her, proposed fun ways to get her out and exercising (ie:hikes, tennis, etc.) tried to school her on the rewiring of mesolimbic pathways and the myriad negative health effects while simultaneously being hopeful and upbeat- there's still time to change the road you're on, yada yada, the wonders of neuroplasticity via exercise and clean livin'..

Aah I can see how naive I sound, reading this. Sorry to ramble- As of last night, she went incommunicado. No response, nothing. I texted her dad, who says she's holed up in her room, not a peep, communicating with no one. Apparently she stayed with her mom last night, who is a bipolar schizophrenic type and seemingly a destructive influence..

Does anyone know what the right move is here? Yea I could just forget about it, move back to LA, it was just a fling.. but that's too easy. I'm not taking this personally, her reflexive lying, the self-absorption.. she is an addict. But really, objectively, what is the best thing I can do for this poor soul? What does she need? Should I tell her dad about her meth use? Tell him that she hides it in her socks? I risk being less able to help her if I narc like that. What then? Corner her dealer, put a gun to his head? Surveil him, gather enough dirt, give some detective a freebie? She'll just find that shit somewhere else of course (fun to think about though).

So you tell me guys. Is the only thing I can really do just stand back, offer love and support if she wants it?

Thank you so much for reading and weighing in, I appreciate it.