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People.
I've been pretty socially inept in real life for most of my life. There's a small handful of reasons for this, including my childhood, the fact I tend to think/act differently than most people I've met, and the fact I mostly keep to myself.
I also keep a high standard for friendships. I expect people to actually put in effort to care for one another in a friendship, since I do.
So as it is, I've had a difficult time connecting with people.
As the years have went on, I've lost plenty of friends naturally through time and just drifting away from eachother, as is normal. Unfortunately though, I've found as the years go on, it's become more and more difficult to develop more connections. Probably because most people, as they get older, spend more time on career and family, and less on other personal relationships.
I'm fine if I'm single, and I'd be fine if I died single.
I have a nagging need for connection with others though, and my recent lack of it has been making my existence less bearable, and although my situation is already pretty bad, I fear it becoming even worse in the future.