Pretty good. Could you imagine living forever? I get tired of everything after awhile, and at some point I'd get tired of living, too. Imagine having to tread along for eternity knowing that it would never end...

One of the most soothing thoughts I've had involves the idea that what you experienced in the year 600 AD is what is to come after your death: absolutely nothing. Time folds in on itself to the unconscious mind, and seemingly a "microsecond" after your true death an eternity goes by. The only time you are conscious and thus aware of time is after that microsecond which, by the sheerest accident of luck, you cluelessly find yourself reliving another life elsewhere with no knowledge of anything before birth. It just so happens that after the billions and billions of years before you, you happen to be living "now". Technically, you'll always be living "now", only in different life forms, since time is meaningless when a life-form is not being lived.

When you hear of people saying they're afraid of "eternal darkness", what they're alternatively saying is that they are afraid of eternal time. It makes you wonder why they are seeking a cure for cancer and all possible ailments, when a lack of anything to ail you will in theory create the eternal time they fear.

I'm not going to be cliche and say I'm not afraid of death. It fucking terrifies me. I don't take comfort when people say how insignificant individuals are in the grand scale of the universe. I want to be important. I want to matter. I want to leave an impact. And how cruel is it to have an entire conscious full of hopes, dreams, aspirations just disappear for eternity?

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It's not dying that scares me, but the fact I am with a 99.999% certainty going to be absolutely forgotten within the next century.

Kinda funny that this should be my fear, seeing as I'm already pretty anti-social and I don't really like attention. It's just that I think about the billions upon billions of people who lived out their lives and now they're not even name on a grave, they are literally nothing.

I don't necessarily want to be remembered by everyone, like say a Roman emperor or a renown mathematician or anything. I just want my name, my existance to be written down and at least remembered by someone. Heck, even one of Michelangelo's illiterate servants is remembered because of a damn shopping list.

The thought that I should die and in a 100 years nobody will even have a way of knowing of me scares me so bad. I just don't want to not be completely forgotten by history.

I want to let go so badly and I feel so much external pressure to keep living. Life has been getting increasingly surreal in kind of a bad way and I can't handle it.

>>5334
It's amazing how different we all are.

It makes me feel, in a kind of a weird way, relieved, for the misery of living in such a body that will never be capable of doing things I wish it could do shall end.

For the misery of my life, my overthinking, my impossible, insane desires, shall end.

And every skeleton looks the same anyway.

I just hope that we restfully dream

>>5333
Experiencing my consciousness being dismantled is what terrifies me. Dying, not existing, doesn't bother me a bit. It's that inevitable split second where your brain is only marginally functioning. How long and how awful is that experience from within your mind. It could be nothing or it could be the worst thing imaginable.

>>5354
>my consciousness being dismantled
I have a lingering fear of brain damage. For many years I have suspected that I will likely die from a severe head trauma. It almost makes me sick to my stomach to imagine being alive with a partially incapacitated brain, even if it only lasts a few moments.

That said, death I wouldn't feel too bad about. Been waiting for it for a long time now. Being dead would solve all kinds of problems for me, but I'm not going to kill myself because that would hurt other people.

Komm, süsser tod.

>>5334
I have begun to evanesce in the memories of my ex - the one I care for more than anything in this world, and the one that drove me here. The pain that 6 years of love amounted to nothing in her eyes, and worse, that after only one year apart, she has begun forgetting all the reasons we were together.

Being alive while I disappear from this world is by far the most painful thing my heart has endured. At least being dead means I won't feel it.

This used to make me depressed and unmotivated. Now because I know I can't do nothing about it I know that I shouldn't even care.



I'm now a bit more motivated to know that no matter how much I fuck up I can always die. I can do what I want with no remorse because death is near. tis coool

I've recently begun to feel as if I have two conflicting thought patterns on death. There's the higher part of my brain that can accept that I'm impossibly small and temporary, but I can't get all the way there. Death is still terrifying.

honestly? Relieved. Even as a little kid it didn't faze me, probably because I was too focused on happiness. I'm not really happy anymore. I'm scared of never being scared of death.

I don't fear death. What scares me most, however, is HOW I am going to die. If I die, I just want it to be painless. Without me realizing that it even happened.

>>5326
I was considering kms lately, so I guess 'm ooay about it.
It's not like there's much to lose anyway

>>5334
Tell me your name Anon. I'll make my best effort to remember it.

>>5334
Tell me your name Anon. I'll make my best effort to remember it.

>All shall fall. We are all going to die someday. Each and every one of us. How does that make you feel?

Disillusioned about the promises of a better future, unattached from the past, fully in the present, like a dying man realizing that the feeling of beauty comes from within, when one pauses to see the world without worries.

it brings me motivation and relief. It makes me realize than I''m going to regret not doing anything but even if i dont end up doing anything I get relief knowing that I wont live with that regret forever.

So im gonna give life a shot even if i fail

I'm grateful for death. It's a reminder to enjoy the littlest of things while I still can.

It terrifies me, makes me stay up at night, and occupies an unhealthy amount of my thoughts. I can't cope.

>>6656
This. Has been like that for 15 years, I thought it would get easier as you get older but it doesn't.

>>6666
I legitimately cannot comprehend what it is to fear death itself. Suffering, leaving loved ones, sure, but why are you any more concerned than you are with the world before your birth? Enjoy what little awareness you have if you can, but if your biggest problem is that it'll be over someday, then you're doing pretty well for yourself.

Non-existence doesn't bother me at all.
I've been non-existent for billions of years before my birth, and haven't been bothered by it in the slightest.

Also,
>7channers worring about being remembered, even though they don't do jack shit in their life worthy of being remembered, more at 11.

>>6682

>7channers worring about being remembered, even though they don't do jack shit in their life worthy of being remembered, more at 11.

Millennials always do this. They criticize in others what they're too lazy to do themselves.

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I literally can't wait and I hope for the day I muster up the courage to just end it all successfully.

>>6714
what do you think awaits you anon, no bullying im just curious

I'm mostly pissed off that i'm just old enough that we won't see agelessness in my life time, but within 2 generations or so, aging won't be a cause of death any more. You'll live long enough that getting hit by a bus is basically the only way people die any more. Aging will be solved, but accidents happen kinda world. I see a world where people hide in spaces to avoid the entropy of risk, but otherwise have a endless lifespan.
I think were within a 100 years of that, but pissed and bummed that i'll see it coming and not get to partake of a pretty shitty situation that's still better than eating a bullet.

I'm mostly pissed off that i'm just old enough that we won't see agelessness in my life time, but within 2 generations or so, aging won't be a cause of death any more. You'll live long enough that getting hit by a bus is basically the only way people die any more. Aging will be solved, but accidents happen kinda world. I see a world where people hide in spaces to avoid the entropy of risk, but otherwise have a endless lifespan.
I think were within a 100 years of that, but pissed and bummed that i'll see it coming and not get to partake of a pretty shitty situation that's still better than eating a bullet.