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… today, while the universal ban on violence was met with universal praise in regards to humanity, the extension of the concept of cannibalism to include all animals was initially met with much oppression. To appease the cravings of the masses to consume flesh, several vegetable foods were selectively bred to resemble animal meat in taste, texture and nutrition. While animal husbandry is still occasionally practiced today in order to obtain products such as wool and milk, the modern demands for animal welfare has made such substances luxury items. Instead, a number of alternatives has …
REVOLVATIO MORALIS
Indeed, this wasn’t just a one-off episode of Isa and Ari wanting to copy something they saw Maya do. That very same night, once bedtime arrives, we all go upstairs to our chambers. We bid each other goodnight, but before retreating to their room the two small kitties want goodnight kisses. They both stand on their tiptoes side by side, and I bend down with a slight hesitation to lightly give their lips a kiss. There’s nothing passionate about it, it’s nothing more than a brief display of affection. But still… It’s not normal to kiss your servants on the lips. When I climb into bed together with Maya, I can feel that I have to bring it up with her again.
“Hey… Are you actually really, really okay with, uh, me kissing Isa and Ari?”
Maya immediately gives me the same look she did in the workshop - a puzzled curiosity, as if I am behaving very strangely. But to be honest, I’m pretty worried. Things are suddenly moving so quickly between the four of us, and I don’t want any jealousy to tear apart the trust I’ve built with the three kitties over the past couple of months. Maya and I have declared our love for each other, but if she feels betrayed by me also showing physical affection for Isa and Ari, I…
I don’t want to lose her.
“What is it with you?”
“I don’t really understand how you can be fine with it, since we… Since we also, uh, kiss.”
“That again. Is that how it is for humans? You are only allowed to show love to one person, and one person only?”
“... Yeah.”
“... How weird. If you love Isa and Ari, I want you to show it to them.”
“Okay. Well, at least… I want you to know that it’s different when I’m kissing you.”
We are lying on our sides, facing each other. Is this the so-called pillowtalk I have heard my brothers mention? I’m still not entirely used to these intimate moments. Maya puts a hand up over her mouth to hide a giggle, her tail making a single sway in the darkness.
“I know.”
We’re quiet for a few seconds before Maya speaks out again, her voice now softer.
“I’m just… I’m just happy that you love all three of us.”
“Aw, of course I do. Come here.”
I wrap my arms around her and hug her tightly in against me. I feel her breathing quicken… She is suddenly becoming emotional again.
“I can’t believe we’ve found a home… Somewhere we can stay.”
“I’m happy that place is here.”
“M-mmm… I’m happy too…”
Maya’s voice is about to crack. I don’t mind that tears come so easily to her these days, though. She must have gone through a lot, she must have felt an enormous responsibility weighing on her shoulders while she was alone with Isa and Ari. It must have been especially hard after she hurt her leg, and they were starving… It’s a sad sort of irony that they are starving yet again. I now feel my own huge burden of responsibility for taking care of these kitties, and I…
Before I am overcome with guilt, Maya speaks out again.
“Can you… Can you hold me tighter?”
I increase my grip around Maya’s torso.
“... Tighter.”
I strain my muscles even more, and also wrap a leg around Maya’s. I’m beginning to worry I’m going to hurt her.
“Tighter.”
Her voice is almost a whisper. I squeeze her tiny body almost as hard as I can, and she finally breathes a sigh of relaxation. She is completely immobilized in my arms, but I feel her calming down. In turn, I begin to calm down as well. We fall asleep like this.
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I’m outside again. It is snowing lightly, and everything is covered with a fine and sparkling white layer. Even though I am venturing further out from Emberholm than before, I still do not see anything edible. The surrounding landscape is very monotonous, in an idyllic but barren sense. Thick forests, lifeless here in the winter, intersped with rocky and stony fields. Sloping cliff sides that lead to the mountain range in the distance. Tired, I return. I leap across the stream of water that is thankfully still flowing behind my castle, and take another look around.
While it is more important to find something for us to eat, I still haven’t solved the mystery of the hot water flowing through the cellar of the workshop. Where is it coming from, and where is it going? I scan the facade of the backside of Emberholm, the grey wall and the knightly round towers of each corner covered in a coating of dusty snow. The heat of the castle is coming from within, or from below, not from outside. That much is obvious. I wonder if the same is the case for the water.
I notice Ari passing by one of the windows. She notices me too, and waves energetically down to me. I wave back. I’m so thankful that Emberholm can keep the kitties warm. It’s cold out here, but I’ve got warm clothes to wear. They don’t. I turn my attention to the foundation of the castle. I don’t have the slightest idea about architecture or construction. The ground immediately encircling Emberholm is uneven, giving the entire structure an ancient and rugged appearance.
It looks as if Emberholm has shot up from the earth itself, breaking through the stony surface. If I had to take a guess, I would think that Emberholm was originally built up against a small ridge of the mountain range, which has since collapsed into the valley I am standing in now. The stream of water, both the cold one flowing out here and the hot one flowing in there, likely eroded the cliffside until it collapsed. The lower windows and door were likely added afterwards. This would explain the… unconventional design of the building.
I can only imagine that the answer lies in the ground. I go over to the wall, kneel down, and use a rock to scrape against the earth. I’ll need some tools. I take the shortcut through the lower gate and enter the workshop, only stripping myself of my pants and shoes. I am immediately warmed up once I lower myself into the waist-high water. I look around, and going up to the anvil, I grab the largest chisel from the scattered collection of dusty tools that is spread around on the shelves. I exit the workshop, dry my legs off as much as possible, put my clothes back on, and go back outside. The chilly air feels extra cold after having enjoyed the warmth of the cellar.
I pick a spot next to Emberholm’s wall at random, kneel down, and start digging. Man, I wish I had a shovel, but through all our searches of the rooms and hallways of the castle, we have yet to find any tools save for a few bent pots and crooked tableware in the kitchen, as well as the smaller ones in the workshop. I dig around in the hard dirt the best I can, even though I have no idea what I am looking for. Some sort of underground stream, I guess.
I stab the ground with my chisel, I stab it and I stab it and I stab it, and I suddenly hit something hard. I dig out a stone, and throw it to the side. I dig a little deeper, then a little wider, more stones being deposited around me. I then stab into something hard, but not quite as hard as a stone. I thrust my chisel against it again, and the dull edge of the metal makes a thin dent into the object. I dig it out with my stiff fingers, and brush the dirt off of it.
What is this? A ball of compacted soil? No, it’s solid. Feeling it between my fingers, I start to think that it’s… Some kind of plant. Some sort of root? No, that doesn’t make sense. There was no vegetation above it, only bare earth so stony that it borders on gravel. But… It’s too light and too soft to be a stone.
I take it over to the stream, and kneel down to wash the dirt off of it. My fingers hurt in the icy cold water, but I reveal a gnarly and irregularly shaped ball, the size of an egg. The surface is a washed out light purple color, and feels rough against my stiff fingers. My heart is pounding. Could this really be something we can eat? The always-lingering hunger in my stomach is making me impatient, so I slowly bring it to my mouth and dig my front teeth in. With a little bit of pressure, I’m able to bite off a small chunk. I immediately spit it out into my free hand.
The inside is almost the same hue, just a bit more reddish. I sniff it, but smell nothing. I put the small piece back into my mouth, and suck on it. I barely taste anything, just a tinge of an earthly, slightly sweet flavor. I chew. This is as much as I can do to test if it is poisonous, I think. I swallow. It’s definitely edible. If anything, it feels like some sort of mix between a potato and a beetroot. Now I’ll just have to wait and see if it will kill me. I’m fine with the thought of it, actually. I’ll die of starvation if we can’t eat it anyways.
I go back inside, both to not freeze to death before I find out if the… thing I’ve found is poisonous or not, but also to show it to Maya. I find her in the living chamber, sitting on the couch we have dragged in front of the fireplace, in which a tiny pile of furniture is burning. She is sitting with her knees drawn up to her chest, a blanket wrapped around her body. Isa is sitting next to her, cross-legged, concentrating on pulling out the threads of some upholstery. They both look up at me. Dammit, I had planned to only show this to Maya, I don’t want to get the hopes up of the two small kitties if it turns out this root thing isn’t safe to eat. Oh well.
I reveal the root, and tell Isa and Maya about how I found it. As I had feared, Isa wants to immediately go out and try to find more, driven by the painful hunger I know is in her belly. And as I had expected, Maya is as cautious as I am. She inspects the root closely and holds it up to her nose, and she agrees with me that it doesn’t appear poisonous. We talk it over, and I decide that I will wait one hour to see if I start feeling sick. If I don’t, then we will all go out and try to dig for more.
I sit down on the couch, and wait.
And wait…
Minutes pass.
I wait, being very attentive of my body. Maya keeps glancing nervously at me, while Isa has lost interest and has gone back to her handiwork.
I wait… And still don’t feel anything. Other than hunger. It’s been around an hour by now, right? Maya keeps looking at me more and more often. Finally, I give her a nod and a tiny, hopeful smile. She smiles back, relieved.
“Isa, go get Ari…! We might be able to find more of the food!”
Isa jumps off the couch and sprints off to find her friend. Could this really be it…? Could I have found a way for us to survive the winter?
A couple of minutes afterwards, all four of us are outside behind the castle, digging through the cold earth with whatever tools we could find in the workshop. The kitties still don’t have warm clothes to wear, but it should be okay for them to be out here for a bit, since we are sure to go soak in the workshop as soon as we’re done here. We dig and we dig and we dig, and before long Ari shouts with glee. She found one! I then find another one, and then Maya and Isa start finding them too. We wash them in the stream, and while I try to remind the smaller kitties that we still don’t know if these gnarly growths are safe to eat, their hunger proves too strong for me to stop them. They greedily eat a couple of them right away, barely chewing the hard, purple flesh before swallowing.
We dig out as many as we can until we are all shaking from the cold. There are not a lot of them in the earth, and our blacksmithing tools are very inefficient in digging through the ground, but we manage to collect a few dozen before we go back inside. I’m so relieved. I still don’t feel sick, and none of the kitties are complaining about discomfort either. I really think we’ve found something that grows around Emberholm that we can eat. They were even growing on the opposite side of the stream, so I don’t think they are limited to just the immediate area along the walls. Everything is going to be fine now..! We’re not gonna die! Everything is going to be okay, everything is taken care of, everything--- …
Wait, no. There is still one tiny thing. The deed. I still have to go to Novioda again to pick it up. But nevermind that. That’s just a chore somewhere far in the future. For now, everything-- …
No, there’s still something else. There’s still my head. I look at Maya. She senses it and looks back. She knows. And a few minutes later, she is taking care of it. She takes care of me. God, I love her. I suck on her breast until the pain has gone away. Everything really IS good.
As if the world outside is celebrating our discovery of the purple roots, we are blessed that evening with the most beautiful sunset. I’m standing in my chamber, looking out through the large windows again. It has stopped snowing. The skies above the mountains are a bright pink and orange. Maya is in a good mood too, laying on my bed while humming quietly to herself. Isa and Ari are in their bed, having kissed me goodnight a few minutes ago. I look out at the sky until it becomes almost black - it gets dark quickly now that winter is here. But the moon is out, bright and full, coating everything in an otherworldly silver hue.
“August? Aren’t you coming to bed?”
I turn around. Maya, laying on her stomach with my duvet pulled up to her neck, has turned her head to look up at me with a slightly worried look on her face. I smile down to her.
“Yes. I am.”
“... Is something wrong?”
That’s what I love about Maya. She cares deeply about us all. Now that I have broken the hard shell she was trapped in when I found her, she openly shows it to me. I shake my head.
“No… Quite the opposite! Everything is good… I think. We’ve found something to eat, we’ve got water, the castle is still keeping us warm. And you and Isa are all healed up.”
“Mmm~”
Maya nods and hums in agreement. But she keeps looking at me.
“... But?”
… She can really tell. She can really read me quite easily. I sigh, not wanting to show my frustration. Today is a good day, I want to end it on a good note too.
“Nothing, it’s-- It’s just the usual.”
“Your head?”
“... Yeah. I’m just… I’m so sick and tired of it. It’s always there, all the time, this… Sickness. I always have to be careful, or it’ll start to hurt.”
Maya rolls up on her side, and I begin pacing back and forth by the end of the bed while I let my frustrations out, even though I said I didn’t want to. At least I’m able to keep my voice down. I don’t want to wake Isa and Ari.
“Look, I’m happy that we have fixed our problems and can work on improving the castle, but… It’s happening so damn slowly! I’m not-- It’s not you or Isa or Ari I’m annoyed with, but myself! Things would be so much easier if I didn’t have this damned condition, if I could move heavy things around and move around freely, without having to rest all the time. It’s just…”
Having let it all out, I sigh.
“... I’m just so sick of it. I might even have tried digging in the ground outside the castle earlier. We could have found those roots a long time ago, we didn’t have to starve ourselves like this..!”
Maya is quiet for a few seconds before she rolls over on her back.
“It… It helps when you suck on my… Um, breasts… Right?”
“Yes, it… does. And I’m forever thankful for that. It makes it go away completely, at least for some time.”
I smile softly down to Maya, wanting her to know how much I appreciate what she is doing for me. But she still looks worried. Then, very slowly, she pushes the duvet off to the side.
“A-August… There’s something that I’ve been thinking…”
Huh? I come to a standstill right at the end of the bed. Still moving slowly and gracefully, almost as if in a dream, Maya pulls her shirt up over her head. At first I think she is just offering me to put my mouth to her chest again, and I’m almost about to climb up on the bed, but… Something seems off. Maya is acting strange, gazing up at me with a concerned, but also slightly dreamy look in her eyes. The moon is now shining directly into the chamber, and with an almost magical precision the angle of the moon and the shape of the window creates a rectangle of light that perfectly illuminates my bed, and the small catgirl on it.
Maya, still moving slowly yet deliberately, takes her skirt off. Both pieces of clothes are deposited onto the floor, disappearing into darkness. My eyes scan the black and white scene of radiant silvery light that is before me from top to bottom. Above, Maya’s silvery hair almost shines in the moonlight. Her hair has by now grown long enough to reach her shoulders, and it has become extraordinarily thick and voluptuous. Most of it is spread in a circle behind her head, almost looking like a halo. Thick bangs are falling down on both sides of her eyes, her deep, sharp eyes which are gazing intensively up at me.
I let my eyes continue downwards, down across her chest where the two dark spots of her nipples indicate the place that has given me relief and comfort ever since the first day I met her. Further down, I gaze upon Maya’s flat tummy, her small belly button, and with perfect timing, my eyes come to rest on her narrow hips just as she slips her thumbs under the waistband of her underwear. I feel my heartbeat quicken.
“August… If my breasts are able to make the pain go away… Then…”
With one smooth but slow movement, Maya draws her legs up to her chest, pulls her panties down, and removes the fabric from her body. We lock our eyes together before my gaze instinctively returns to her nether regions. This is the first time I’ve seen her naked with nothing in the way - no water, no clothes, nothing. Even with the dim moonlight, I can easily see the entirety of her vagina. Further down, her tail is innocuously bent out of the way, curling slightly up into the air next to her thigh.
With a slight nervousness, Maya then places both of her hands on her lower stomach, palms pressed against her skin. She touches the tips of her thumbs and index fingers together, forming a triangle right where her… Uh, where the core of her womanhood is. Her index fingers are pointing down at the top of her slit.
I understand what she means… I think I do. Though I can’t believe it. I can’t even imagine it. I… I must be wrong. Surely. She can’t really propose that we--
My doubts are dispelled when Maya moves again. She, again with a slow and graceful determination, spreads her legs up and out as far to the sides as she can, her knees still bent. I watch her labia peeling slightly apart, revealing just the hint of the flesh between them.
Then, to really make it clear what she is offering me, Maya brings both of her hands down between her legs to spread her vagina open with her fingertips. The ultimate display of submission. She takes a deep breath, and watches me for my reaction. A thousand thoughts rush through my head. This young catgirl, hostile and with a burning hate for humans when I first met her, is now showing me the most private, the most intimate part of her body. A place no man should ever see - especially since we are not of the same race. It’s absolutely abnormal. But…
What if she is right? What if it will work?
If I could be cured from this blasted illness that has plagued me my whole life… How could I resist that? The thought of never having to live through another incapacitating episode, never having to feel the terrible throbbing of pain in my head, never passing out of sheer discomfort, never having to limit myself and what I do, ever again… It would change… Everything.
I look up into Maya’s eyes. She keeps herself still in this position. Waiting. I can see everything down below - her outspread pussy, a small fold of skin at the top, the slight hint of an opening at the bottom. My body aches. I’m hard, harder than ever. And my erection brings with it the all too familiar and damned physical pain in my body. But I can… I can make it go away. Right now.
I step closer. I step closer again. Maya is breathing slowly but deeply, her chest moving up and down. I crawl up on the bed, and undress myself. Once I am just as naked as Maya, I move up to hover above her on my hands and knees, my crotch directly above hers. She is still keeping her legs spread underneath me, and is still keeping her vagina opened. I look down into her eyes.
“... Are you sure?”
Of course she is sure. Otherwise she wouldn’t remain in this position - completely and utterly open to me. She gives me a faint nod, and in her eyes I see a mix of nervousness, trust, excitement, and a tiny bit of fear. I nod back, and slowly lower myself.
We’re… Gonna do it.
Everything that has led me up to this point flashes through my mind - my headaches, my purchase of Emberholm, my first meeting with the kitties… Maya, so cold and hostile towards me in the beginning, slowly warming up to me, coming to trust me… This girl who hissed at me when we first met is now lying on my bed, offering the most precious part of her body to me. She has decided to help me. It has all come together in this attempt to cure me.
I had never thought I would get to lie with a woman. I only have the most basic idea of how it works, but that should be enough. I reach down to grab my manhood, bending my head to look down at what I am doing. Maya has shown me very clearly how she looks down here, so I surmise that I only need to target the midway point between where her fingertips are. I do so, and feel the tip of my penis brush against soft and slightly damp flesh. Maya patiently lies still, her breathing slow and controlled.